No four walls around you with a ceiling and a floor, and a happy heart and home at the center was ever created just from a vision and a foundation. 

No. And this is why…

Do your relationships make or break you?

If you’re a human on this planet, which, if you’re reading this, I sincerely hope you are, I have a message for you.

I know, your life is hard. Mine is, too.

I’m not going to talk to you about privilege, or how you have it easier than other people and for that, dammit, you should be GRATEFUL.

No.

I’m here to remind you of the truth.

You, human, you live on the densest plane in the universe. There are 144,000 planes of progressing density in the universe, and you live on the 144,000th.

Do you ever feel like your spirit doesn’t match your body, your life or your reality? That’s ‘cause your spirit came from the 0th densest plane.

So you’re a light, bright, beautiful spirit living in a dense, heavy, slog-through-the-mud kind of neighbourhood (Earth).

You think a thought, or get an idea, and it has to move from the 0th layer, the place your Spirit came from, alllllllll the way down to Earth. All the way down, past layers and layers and layers of the universe, getting heavier and heavier, getting harder and harder to move, to create, to manifest, as you descend.

Human, you can manifest! You *are* the source, you *are* the God/Goddess. And it requires way, way more effort here on Earth than it did where you came from.

So yeah, your life is hard. It’s okay, and you can do it. You chose this.

For now, your life is supposed to be hard. Because you signed up for Advanced Placement Soul Growth School (TM). You chose to be birthed on the most difficult training ground in the ENTIRE UNIVERSE.

If that doesn’t sound like a warrior to me, I don’t know what is.

Speaking of this, have you seen the movie, “The Platform”? It’s reminding me of this discussion. I think it’s a Spanish movie, but it’s well worth a watch to illustrate this concept. In the movie, prisoners live on different floors of a prison, from Level 1 all the way down a couple of hundred floors.

The food for everyone in the prison descends beginning from Level 1. That means if you are in the higher, less dense realms, you get more delicious, fresher food, like escargot, your favorite green curry, micro greens, and those juicy plump grapes that Ofelia accidentally eats in Pan’s Labyrinth. But if you’re at layer 144 (thousand), you get the morsels if anything at all. You have to *pull*, with your mind, with your will, the nourishment, the light, down into your density.

That’s you. You’re pulling light all the way down from Source, and on the way it gets a little dusty. By the time it arrives at you, it might feel like the morsels.

And that’s life on Earth, and it ain’t easy! But you’re doing *so* well. You’re spreading the light! Remember the non-denominational Christmas tree? Light up those bulbs, baby, ‘cause we have a density to un-densify.

I want you to think of the difficulties that you’ve been through in your life— the ones that seemed unfair, the times all the odds were stacked against you, the time you got totally f’d by the ‘way things are’. There are two super important semi-dichotomous truths about this.

You aren’t a victim of those circumstances, because you chose to be here. You signed up for the smart kids math class.

That doesn’t make it easy.

The thing about this is that you can never be perfect. Not even imperfectly perfect. You can’t be perfect living in this density! There’s always going to be something you can do better. But that’s the *best part of being a human*!

I want you, this week, when you are down on yourself, or you’re judging other people to think about life on the densest plane in the universe. You don’t have it easy, and neither do they. So, God/Goddess, please: cut yourself a break, and keep striving for excellence as you pull light into this density, because we all need it from you.

So much love.

Jackie

Y’all, this podcast style transmission is one spicy mo-fo and she is *here* for you! You’re going to love this one. Be sure to click to listen to the audio on Substack.

I cover:

• The biggest animal in the healing jungle

• The mechanics of your brain scape before, during, and after a deep and pivotal session

• The nature of your SPIRIT

• Fear and the negative ego

• Why you’re resisting your next step and how tf to stop

• Do you feel neutral about the next step? This is what it means.

• The truth about your logical reasons not to do something

• Rapid-fire journaling questions to jumpstart your next quantum leap

xoxo,

Jackie

Magicians have been trying to teach us magick in plain sight for *years*.

Famous authors like William Shakespeare and Carl Jung were not just experts in their field… they were magicians! (Multidimensional, much?)

That means we can get hints about magick through reading.

As a child, I started learning all about magick from my favorite books ever… I owe a lot of who I have become to my childhood as a voracious adventure, mystery, and fantasy novel reader.

Books, in tandem with my parents encouraging me to believe in the ‘impossible’ by creating elaborate plots & relationships that I maintained over the course of years with, for example, the Tooth Fairy, set the stage for my adulthood as a real-life-magician.

This list is perhaps ‘unique’ because I have chosen books that encourage and foster our sense of believing in magick, along with a couple of ‘heavy hitters’ which explain more about the rules of magick and principles behind it. No one book is better than the other.

Understanding theory is worth nothing without application! (Most of the world doesn’t understand this…)

Anyway, without further ado, 5 books to push to the top of your magickal reading list.

1) The Harry Potter series: by J.K. Rowling. I feel like this one is an automatic *add to cart* without any need for explanation. Is there anything more magickal than the Harry Potter series? It gives readers the opportunity to learn about a wide variety of magickal tools: wands, the Philosopher’s Stone, magickal creatures like unicorns, mermaids and dragons… and it’s so easy to digest! Read this to your children to instil a sense of ‘believing in magick’.

2) The Kybalion: written by ‘Three Initiates’, this short and deep book explores the basic rules of Hermetics, like rhythm, vibration, the law of cause and effect, and gender. It speaks to energies on the planet and integrating this wisdom helps all of us witches & wizards become the masters of our craft. I have this beautiful hardcover version, which totally changes the vibe and offers a sneak peak into the sacred geometries…

3) Aion: Researches into the Phenomenology of the Self: by Carl Jung. As a fellow psychologist, I can say that something woke up inside of me the I first flipped through this book. If you are psychologically-inclined, too, please read this book! We know that mastering the physical world comes first from knowing who we are, and in this book, Jung explores the 'Self’ from all angles. He discusses the ego, Christ consciousness, selfhood and symbols of the self. It is *so* good.

4) Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking Glass: This classic by Lewis Carroll shows us the power of a perspective shift. I also love the movies directed by Tim Burton (as a bonus!). The costumes are incredible.

5) A Midsummer Night’s Dream: by William Shakespeare. This is my favorite Shakespeare play, and I owe it all to the fairies. The movie version is great, and it’ll take you back to high school English class. Any play directors out there? Cast me as Puck, kay?

Baby, you’re a diamond in the rough.

The layers of you that are hardened, rough, and ugly to the touch. Those aren’t you. You lie underneath all of that. That’s the pressure, where you’ve alchemized

all your past, pain, and hurt into…

pure diamond.

the strongest, hardest, and arguably most beautiful mineral on the earth.

The one with the most potential.

The most magick within.

The one that amplifies the light.

Your power is infinite- we can create tools out of you, more gods and diamonds out of you. We can create beauty from your mere existence.

Underneath your hurt is your diamond.

Love it. Foster it. Care for it. Lean into its pressure. This heat, this alchemical, transformational experience that you are going through….

That is your birthright.

Your mission here is to become the God(dess), diamond, shining brilliantly for the entire world to see.

For once you are that tool, your mere existence is a light for others in the world to create as you have.

This is your destiny.

Do not ignore your pain, your pressure, the demands that life puts on you.

Because that is your greatest potential for alchemy.

Do you consider yourself organized, efficient, or focused?

I do, but it doesn’t come naturally. I have family history of severe ADHD and general absentmindedness, but I trained myself to be focused and organized from a young age by reading books like “The Organized Student” in 5th grade and using an index card to cover all but the math problem that I was currently solving for my homework assignments.

Now as an adult, I further develop my focus using ancient spiritual techniques combined with modern psychological practices, which I work on with my clients and always, always practice just as deeply in my own life.

In short, I know that when I have one point of focus, I can focus.

But then I went to the market to buy my current food obsession (closed taste in Human Design, if you know, you know), which is olive bread.

As I was checking out at the market with my olive bread, it suddenly dawned on me that I had forgotten to grab a carton of oat milk for my daily matcha.

“One moment please,” I told the checkstand girl, “I forgot something.” I walked over to get the oat milk, which was about ten steps away.

Between me and the oat milk stood a giant display of polvorones, a Spanish candy made with almond flour, butter, and sugar, which is only available during the month of October. Captivated by my favorite candy that I hadn’t seen or eaten in a year, I immediately began inspecting all of the polvorones to see if they had my favorite flavor, which is cinnamon.

I rummaged through the twelve types of polvorón, picking up one polvorón from each divider and deciphering the old Catalan script, looking for indications of flavor. There was no cinnamon flavor, much to my dismay, only the traditional type, along with sesame (ew) and lemon (also kind of ew). Only after inspecting all of the polvorones did the checkstand girl faintly return to my awareness, wiggling her little finger in the back of my brain.

I had left her standing at the checkout with nothing to do, waiting for me to retrieve my oat milk (and apparently look at all of the polvorones in the stores) to pay so that she could return to stocking shelves.

At the sight of the candies, my so-called laser “focus”, trained after reading The Organized Student shifted entirely from oat milk then check-out, to POLVORONES. I completely forgot that the checkstand girl was waiting for me.

How quickly the candies pulled my attention away from my task at hand.

The Lesson

In a life full of push notifications, beeps and vibrations, TikTok attention spans and children screaming at us for our precious attention, the focus/refocus cycle is required to keep us on our path to full embodiment of our divinity.

When the mind is still and silent, we hold the key to our creativity and access to our Higher Selves.

We want to achieve stillness and silence, so that we can embody this.

But focusing isn’t always easy. Focusing the mind isn’t just a ‘close your eyes and empty your thoughts’ immediate gratification type of practice. No.

Focus, like a workout on the track, requires a warm-up. Neurochemical circuits ramp up to their maximum capacity by releasing more ‘focus neurotransmitters’ (for those of you who care, epinephrine, acetylcholine, serotonin, dopamine) the more you focus.

But strengthening the system as a whole is achieved only through an unexpected behavior.

That magick lies in the moment that you realize you were distracted, and bring your attention back to your object of focus.

Focus circuits in your brain are reinforced & strengthened in this moment— when you bring your attention *back* to your focus, not while you are maintaining it.

While meditating (unless you’re an expert, and I would argue, even when you are), your attention will drift from the meditation, the breath, or the mantra. In this case, ‘if at first you don’t succeed, try, try again’ is an apt recommendation.

Like my moment in the market when I realized ‘Oh, yeah! The check stand girl is waiting for me” and returned my focus to her, you will become better at focusing after you screw it up and bring your awareness back to your point of focus.

So, instead of shaming yourself the next time you get distracted, simply return your focus to the object or task at hand. This is how you will become less distractible.

My favorite way to practice this is by starting my week with an hour of energy re-set at Max Meditation.